Another sleepless night at 37 1/2 weeks pregnant ....
But I can't help losing sleep over thinking of my baby girl who is coming any day now and my sick mother who is losing her battle to cancer after fighting it bravely for two years.
I am in a race with time....hoping my baby girl will enter this world before my mother exits this world, so that my mother can at least leave peacefully knowing that the grandchild she has been looking forward to meet is finally here.
However, everything is out of my control - I cannot speed up my baby girl's journey to make her entrance, nor can I slow down my mother's final journey to make her exit.
I can do nothing but wait helplessly .... for the bliss of birth and the despair of death to collide in the coming days as I make the transition into motherhood.
So help me God.
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formosalily, for a woman, it's a life changing experience to become a mother. I love my mom, but we're not super close like sisters. After I had my baby, I missed her and needed her so much that I couldn't even described. Now I understand, because I was overwhelmed and needed her to teach me how to be a mother, I needed her caring, comfort and love. I became a daughter who needs her mom again, But, she lives in Taiwan and she only saw my baby once when we went back last year. It's not easy when mom is not around. But the smile of your baby, the joy you and your husband is going to have, the love God put in your baby that she will bring to this world are going to give you that strength you need to go through each day. I pray that your mom will be able to share this wonderful joy with you and I believe her spirit in future will always be with you to help you become a great mother. Many prayers for you, your baby, your mom and your family.
Jill, it's difficult to go through the pregnancy without my mom even though I know she is always thinking of me and her unborn granddaughter and praying for us. My mom has been looking forward to meeting her grandchild since hubby and I got married 10 years ago. She was overjoyed to know that I am finally pregnant a few months ago. It makes me sad to think about the possibility of my daughter's growing up without her grandmother who has so much love for her...